s no..

As the mobile beeps away desperate to grab his attention, I attempt to be patient...not to be the victim of whimsical acts. In a bit,I could either be dancing with the daffodils or sinking with the sun .But atleast one way or the other, Life would resume.

'Follow your heart'. If only it were as simple as that, when many a times, in retrospect, I have been thankful for the good sense I had to follow my mind. Attimes the heart sends such weird messages which the mind vetoes after infinite scrutinies.

I have this heart and mind that play poker all the time. And any game wagered with a clear head ,a sane mind, focussed drive and a bit of luck is a tough gamble to lose. But as rare as they are true, there are these times when all those take a back seat paving way for magic.

A chaotic silence. My mobile has been mute for long. It was a 'no'. This particular time I had wanted a 's'. But I knew from experience that Wants could be very deceptive. Wants could turn around and make a mock of you tomorrow. But my mobile had made the sound of silence. This time apparently 'no' was the sensible thing to follow. 'no' was the truth I was refusing to accept. I had my answer and it was time to be happy.Then i got one missed call...Out of nowhere, the daffodils sprung and bloomed its way to the sky. It was a 's'.

For the past few years, times when foresight failed and tiny decisions and predictions had to be done, times when I had the courage to hand over control of my life , I would frame up a question for which the answer could be only 'yes' or 'no'. Miles away, my friend , with whom i was only occasionally in touch, who had no clue as to what my question was, what answer would make me happy( 's' is not what I always want)... made a decision for me. On no basis. Crazy as it sounds, I challenged destiny to prove me wrong and destiny accepted. I knew exactly what had to be done but refused to recognise it. But I must say, looking back am happy for all the choices I made.

If this has cocked up eyebrows, I have to add that I have found that not all random choices have been great. But with him, somehow it has always been magically right.

Gowtham...This post is dedicated to that split second which you take to pick a 's or no', inspite of me leaving you in the dark about what it was all about. They may not be life turning choices, but in its own little ways, your responses have reassured my faith in my own judgement and given me the strength to do what has to be done!!

Thanks natpu;)

P.S: Don't get biased with this post. The rules of the game will never change:)